gavyne.-

a series of unfortunate events ?

2009-11-30T00:00:00.001-08:00

its not often i blog anymore ..
and theres reason for that too .
its time for me to blog vent
anywho .

last time i blogged i was at Mias house .
not because i was visiting
but coz i ran away from home ..
sounds stupid that when life got hard for me ..
i just packed my bags and left ..
but heck , i couldnt do anything right ..
so i stayed there for abt a week ..
then i went to my lolas , and then back home .
*sigh .
lifes tough , it was an experience , but not on the terms i wouldve rather experienced them on .

but in this time i spent some .. i mean , a SHITLOAD of quality time with Mia Michelle and Nicole .. good times :)

so anway .
i was back at home and the thursday before school (14th October) i went to bondi with the mates .
it was fun , but it rained .
beach , karaoke and midnight drinkup ; the best (Y)
and yee ..
that was the first time i was out and about with people i truly cherished .
and i was sposed to ask my girlfriend out then ..
but there were numerous complications to that
anwyay , yes , i did end up asking her to be mine forever
two days later .
Marissa & Gavyne <3 161009

so yee .. life was good .
with the Missus by my side , with everything okay with my family again , it was all sweet
and then we got a letter ..
a letter of eviction .
so i got it 3 or 4 weeks ago and now i have but a fortnight to cherish what little time i have left with my family .
its true what they say .
that you dnt truly appreciate something once they have gone or are about to leave .
and now all i can do is pray that they make a good life in the Philippines and that nothing bad happens .
ive decided to stay here in Australia , with my Dad , to finish my HSC year and continue with my life here .
its one of those things where you cant just drop everything and leave ...

yeah im gna miss them ..
but what can i do ..

life is effed .
but you gta make the most of it .
and thats what im doing .

ehh ...

2009-09-18T06:22:00.001-07:00

putang ina .
wala akong magawa sa itong situation nito .
fuckfuckfuckfuck

im tired, annoyed and on the brink of getting drunk .
fuckyes =="
im tripping out on VB whislt watching drag me to hell .
fkn weird shit mangs
:L

kick it tagalog stylez

2009-09-11T03:36:00.000-07:00

kung sabihin ko man na hindi na kita pinagmamahal , anong gagawin mo ?
kung mawala man ako, sanay hindi mo ko hahanapin .
at kung mey iba na , sanay hindi ka ma sealos

alam mo na minahal kita .
alam mo rin na ikaw aye dati kong tunay na minamahal ..
pero pinabayaan mo ako .
at ngayon , parang gusto mo ako uli ?
putang ina ano ba yan ha ?

nasasawa na ako sa mga sinasabe mo .
pwede ba , tama na .
alam ko na minamahal mo pa ako .
pero wala na ang dinamdam ko sa iyo .
ayaw kitang isaktan .

at isa pa, sinabe mo na pwede pa tayong maging kaibigan .
kahit na ba hindi na tayo .
pero nahihirapan ako sa ginagawa mo ..
pag nakikita kita , feeling ko parin , tayo pa .
at sinasaktan lang kita .
ayokong ganun .
please lang .

sanay mey makita ka nang bago .
isang lalake na nag papasaya sa iyo .
ung ginagawa ang mga hindi ko ginawa

pero alamin mo , na mahal parin kita .
pero ngayon, bilang kaibigan lang ..

frkn nostalgia ..

2009-09-09T02:56:00.000-07:00

hrmmm .
first off , from yesterday
HAPPY BIRTHDAY PINSANN JENKIN !!
XD

and yee
that's probably the only happy thing atm .
coz you see .
love is a really, really fickle thing .
like cmon guys seriously .. don't you agree ?

i mean .. theres the family love .. the love that shows you care about someone without actually having intimate feelings for them .
and then theres the love .
the love thats shows that you will forever cherish a certain someone .
that you cant go a day without saying "i love you" and really mean it .
i had someone like that .. 2 people actually ..
one after the other and they both slipped away from me ..
*sigh .
my bebs and my phoney phoney babetime .
LOL! yess i realise they are weird nicknames for these people but ..
idno .. its just the way it is i guess .

i let both of them slip away from me ..
one i mistreated and made to feel like she wasnt worth my time or my love .
and im sorry .
and its weird coz i was thinking bout all the times we shared .
and it mad me regret so much ..
it occured to me whilst trying to remember the trigonometric functions in math ..
those times at the movies .. passion ..
everytthing makes me miss her ..
pero i cnt go back ..
not after mistreating her like that ..

and the other ..
well .. tbh i reckon i still have something for her ..
and i think about this one alot of the time ..
jenkins house ..
her house ..
after twilight ..

fahhhkkk !
its nice to write about things you cant tell anyone aye ?
:L
anyways .
thats all from me
ingatz
<3kuyagavz

2009-08-23T14:05:00.000-07:00

oh my ! yet another monthly blog ..
hmm lets see whats happened since the last time i checked in to this site ..
well ..

lately I've been watching recorded tapes of Pres. Corazon Aquino.
she passed away not so long ago (RIP)
got a new phone of my own after almost 5months without one but 3 without a phone altogether . E63 ; rolling with the business phone (H)

life is still quite hard .
you think your going somewhere .. yet the next step you take just pushes you down .
like art .. did pretty good in the word unit .. but in portraiture .. FAHHK !
not just art but a lot of my subjects are like that .. but I'm willing to cope . ill be struggling, but i will cope.

life itself has been (to use an extremely cliche term) an emotional roller coaster .
like tang ina man .. seriously , if you say you like someone .. fucking stick to it . don't freaking lead them on . and if a person has a problem w/ you , wouldn't you want them to confront you about it ? like seriously mangs whats up with that .. =="

lexcen&friends ! :D
zomg watch it !
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2i8lvn0gT04

retreat 2weeeks ago, a chance for us as Patrician Brothers , year 12 class of 2010, to get closer and .. hmm whats the word ? "unite"
i got don so hard tho! and the food was so nice ! :D

so yeah . and then last night was pretty fun . Happy Birthday to Dorothy btw :)
but with every ups theres a down . i had mine, but billy had his too .. he got soo smashed; good thing i was there otherwise .. kickd out by the "baby blue crips" :L !

anyways . thats all from me homies .
ingats
<3kyagavz

2weeksVacation

2009-07-23T16:30:00.001-07:00

hey doodes !
again with the lack of blogs .
thats my bad .

havent been doing much lately .
only homework homework and .. you guessed it . more homework .
i got alot going through my mind atm ..
kinda pissy about alot a things .
makes me wna his some douchbagg

holidays are alright .
apart from the shitloads of homework and the babysitting . im actually getting to chillax.
going to the movies on saturday or sunday .
but ive been twice already . once with the fam , the other withh thee pinsans (:
Hannah Montanna was the best . idk what you say about me
and for me , harry potter was a fail .. was so hyped to see so much in the book tapos .. nothing !
epic fail !

yesterday i went late nite with jett&waing . i was sposd to be with maika for the night but she was still with her friends so .. idk. rather , i was with jacob walking around blacktown at what seemed to be 730-8 but was really 530-6 . ==
late nite westpoint my ass . LOL

but on another note
im thinking of doing more with my blog .
gna design and personalize my own page (:
should be a fun procrastinational activity .
:L and ill deck out my posts like pinsan doschh :) :L

anyways . thats all from me homies .
ingats
<3kyagavz

the End

2009-07-10T01:19:00.000-07:00

simply that .
looks like its over .
as much as id hate to admit it ..
i loved her ..
so much .
but the feeling was gone apparently ..
><

babe you were all i could ever ask for .
and now that your gone ..
i just hope that youll be happy ..
no matter what .

D&G WERE meant to be ..
because they fit so perfectly ..

ingats <3

rmnsc ?

2009-06-29T18:56:00.000-07:00

hey doodes !
a blog in school again .
i really should be doing my english work ..
but i cant think properly ..
its hard when you dont get to see you girlfriend as often as you want
*sigh .
anyway, heres something ive been thinking of ...

------------------------------------------------------------------

i cant let go of memories .
coz i know there the only thing ill keep forever .
every person i hold .
ill always remember .

your always on my mind .
your touch is what ill cherish .
your smell is what i crave .
your presence is what ill give anything up for .

coz baby your all i ever want .
i miss you all the time .
and when your with me .
i never wna let you go .
coz i know .. after we have this time .
it`ll be over as soon as it started .

i love you .
always <3

what is this ? i have a blog ?

2009-06-25T17:01:00.000-07:00

OH MY GOSH !

I have a blogger ?!

shit it doesn't feel like it.

last post for me was maybe ... a month ago ?

fuck its been ages .

pretty much nothing has happened tho .

Crars party was pretty successful .

and after that ....

nothing ..

UNLUCKY !

last week i got my report ..

not so happy with that .

one A - Photography(it was expected, but none the less, a sense of achievement)

two B`s - Religion and English(i got pretty good marks in all assignments so no complaints)

one C - Art(expected .. LOL !)

three D`s - Maths, Physics and IPT(math and physics, i expeected as much , but IPT ?! well im IPT now so .. :P)

mum wasn't too happy about it either.

she took away the laptop, the phone and pretty much all my outings for the next month or so ..

ah well . more time to study !

:D ><

and theres so much pressure to get my L`s in this limited time period .

cause there changing the age to 17 ..

but i rkn Kuya will let me drive the WRX anyway .

ahahah !

but what kills me the most ..

is that i cant talk to diane as much now ..

its hard to get through the day knowing that i wont get to talk to my baby girl ..

dw bebs . soon yee ?

thats it from me homies

ingats palagi <3

kuyagavz

faiL .

2009-05-19T19:40:00.000-07:00

hey dodes . its been a while since a post .
wells .
nothing doing anything for me atm .

im in art , with nothing to do . *sigh .
ah well .

anywho .
its wednesday the 20th. sisters birthday :)
(^) joanna and janine
but thats the only good news atm .
so much h/w , that im not doing , and so many assignments .
none of which i have started .. ==
ah well . ill get to it eventually .
fkn yesterday too ==
failed my Learners test .. i ddnt mind .
but it was a waste of 36bucks . sheit .

and yeah ..
hardly get to see the missus anymore ..
and a kuya of mine keeps bringing up the past ..
== been thinking about that lately too .
farrout !

oh yeah .
at least i have parites this week . almost forgot about it .
titos party and crars on sunday .
something to look forward too anyway :)

so thats all frm me at this moment .
happy advanced to crar and tito if im not on in the next couple of days .
which would be likely ..
*sigh .

ingats
<3kuyagavz

Anti Social Much ?

2009-03-20T23:01:00.000-07:00

hello bloggers .
its been a while since my last post .
so heres what has been happening whilst on my anti social break.

okay .
so i had my 1st month-sarry with Diane on the 14th .
can you believe it ? 1month and counting :D
so happy with her .

but ..
i couldn't spend the day with her ><
my mum went all Nazi on me and didn't let me out .
therefore i couldn't go to Roschelle`s ..
>< sorry again .

so then , she bought me GH: world tour .
it didnt supplement the time i could have spent with Diane and the rest of Shaniqua.
poo .

then i have another party this week, Cassie
and oddly enough . my mum is letting me go ..
well .. its more positive than Roschelle`s party
*sigh .
somethings going on ..

but ive missed talking to Regie and Jenkin the most .
there the only two people i cant regularly talk to .
and its boring without them .
thank god that i can see Diane , otherwise ..

JUMP OFF WESTPOINT THE KIENT :L
jokes

anyways . thats all from me folks .
for now anyways .
stay cool

kuyagavz

senior life

2009-02-21T19:19:00.000-08:00

ahh shiet .
week 5 of the snr life .
and its not what it was cracked up to be ..
:(

shiet .
so much homework .
so much crap i can barely understand . (mainly physics --" )
so much expectations to fill .
its kinda stressing aye ..

but im coping .
like everyone else ..
but its different this year ..
life isnt as easy as it once was ..

being a snr ..
you hardly have time for a break .
so much homework due ..
so when i get the chance . id take it .
like the school disco on wednesday .
and someone please have a party soon !
i needa relax hardout .

but anyway .
life is that much better now .
ever since the 14th of feb .
D&G bebs :)
so happy .

well ..
thats all folks .
ingats ! :D

back in the days .

2009-01-31T20:12:00.000-08:00

for the first time in a long time .
i thought about my Ate Liz .
i havent seen her since last year .. around august .
most likely coz shes of the Dazon side .

when me and her are together these days ,
i dont pay attention to what were doing .
i start reminiscing .
mostly on our childhood together .
we have a 4 year age gap .
and growing up, we were both single children .
and because we are the oldest of our generation .
it was always just us two .

being with my Ate was always fun
life was simple for us kids back then .
no gameboys or Playstations .
but we made do with what we had .
and we loved it .
but i took her for granted .
knowing ill see her at our next party .

anyway ,
back to the present .
i dont get to see my ate anymore .
shes a mum now .
so shes always too busy for me .
but thats okay . as long as Jayden, my nephew, is happy with his mum and dad .

but looking back on things make you realise . you dont know what youve got till its gone .
i love my ate .
shes more a sister than a cousin .
i can always depend on her .
not matter what .

but she was the one who made me realise .
that you cant always have life the way you want .
so ima be strong like my Ate Liz .
coz i know she will always be there .

thank you `te

first day of schooling !

2009-01-28T01:11:00.000-08:00

LETS DO THE FIRST DAY HIGH !
yeahh !!
first day of school .
though really really hot .
it was pretty exciting .
im happy with my teachers of subjects ive had so far .
and the year 7ers are settling in great with the help of peer support .
thats me cuz !
(H)

anyway .
thats all from me

ciao

2009-01-26T23:58:00.000-08:00

zomg !
school bukas .
im so excited .
what with the new stationery , new uniform , new shoes and a new tittle
" Peer Support Leader "

ahh shiet !

yes .
2009 holds many opportunities for me to shine .
oh yeah . open position in Bgrade MCS .
thats mine niggz !

my new subjects will be a blast . xcept physics
stupid aeronautics .
ah well .
if we are to succeed in life , we must make sacrifice .

get to see my " boys " again
LOL !
but yeah .

also getting a job soon .
so that should be exciting .
although its only McDo at 3rd ave , its a start
:)

so yes .
Patrician Brothers College Blacktown
Year 11 , 2009 .
i welcome the opportunities that will arise
:D

anyways .
tc bloggers .

ciao

chicks before dicks ?

2009-01-24T19:10:00.001-08:00

dont accuse me .
dont try and think that you know the whole story when you dont .
its hard for me as it is .
torn between my different sets of friends ..
and not being able to see them all .

FUCK !
ive always put you first .
every chance i get .
your the first on my list to see .
and this is the thanks i get ?

i cant fucking take this bullshit anymore .
i know it hurts for you .
coz you think im choosing you over someone else .
but dont you think making the decision pained me even more ?

in my heart .
i have always held you guys in the highest regard .
coz i know i can always depend on you .
i can always turn to you for help .
and what has happened .
doesnt change anything .

but please .
give me this one time .
to put me before anyone else ..

what a surprise ! xD

2009-01-23T19:59:00.000-08:00

fahk .
sup peeps .
its the day after the surprise party that my friends have planned .
it was pretty fun .
what with the dancing and eating and drinking and buying milk .
LOL !

only today have i realized that my whole holidays have been dedicated to my SAC friends .
what with all the pre-formal events like manicures .
the formal itself .
the cotillion practices .
and all the other outings that were smaller , yet undeniably important .

but this party .
ooft !
so awesome .

i came that afternoon hoping that towards the end of the night ..
id go home with at least some closure of my present situation .
instead .
i get a whole new situation ,which i think, has been totally effed up by me .
><

ah well .
we`ll see what will happen soon enough .

ciao

2009-01-21T01:13:00.000-08:00

love .
can it be generalised ?
can it be defined ?
i dont think so .

love .
it is more than a word ; more than just a feeling .
it is more than something you can claim or earn .

love .
it has different meanings to different people .
some people see love as affection .
others view it as sacrifice .

i used to think love was just another four letter word .
another word that is as easily thrown around as " sorry "
but now ..
i know what love is .

love is not defined by how you feel about a person
it is defined by what you are willing to do for that person .
it can not be measured .
nor can it be bought .

it is a wonderous emotion shared between two people .
no more .
no less .